Today

I observe, I listen. I do my own thing.

There are things to get back in order and slowly everything will fall back into place. Until then, frugality is my name. I realize, combined with my last name, sounds rather funny.

Pay yourself first, my sister told me recently. I realize this is true, however often difficult when living in the moment. I often forget the far future of retirement. Without money saved up, you will not lead a healthy lifestyle. My priorities have changed and so has my attitude towards everything.

I feel more responsible lately. I'm thinking of what I need to do for me without being led or getting caught up in making others super happy.

I was told I have sleep apnea. Lets explore this topic for a moment.

Sleep apnea essentially means out of breath.... When you sleep, your airway is blocked up by some sort of soft tissue in the rear of the throat. Untreated it can essentially make it harder for you to work as you'll be much more tired during the day. (Amongst other issues... )

And finally a very random poem of sorts:

Not so nice outside, the weather grim
tree branches out into a naked dance
earth is fire when boiled in a can
forever toiled to move forward glance.

eyes split into waters ruffled
damaged by time yet clearly seeing
seeing clearly since the beginning
the light is green it's time to move.